Buddha said : “ What is the matter ? Is this a way ? Are you a swordsman ?Your hand is trembling ! Stop your hand from trembling ! This is not right . This shows weakness. One should be strong enough , and I am surprised and I am wondering how you could kill so many people .’’
Angulimal said , “This is for the first time . My heart is beating faster , my breathing is now no more rhythmic , my hand is trembling . you must be doing something ! you must be a magician . !”
Buddha said , “this is true , I am also trying my way , I am trying
To kill you ! but I don’t kill physically . I kill psychologically . But you finish your job.Don’t bother about my work . I will go on doing my work , you do your job.but before you hit my body , one thing you have to do for me, this is the wish of a dying man . Can you cut a few leaves of the tree. ?
Those leaves are just hanging on top of them . Angulimal cut a small branch and gave it to Buddha . Buddha said , ‘’ Good , half is done . Now do the other half – join this branch again and kill me.”
Angulimal said , “ you must be mad ! How can I join it back ?’’
Buddha said , “but cutting a branch even a child can do . The real thing is joining it .
Destruction is very easy , creation is the real thing . Are you a man or a child ?”
Angulimal bowed down his head , ashamed . Buddha said , “ if you can understand that much , then there is no problem . ‘’ I would love to be murdered by you –you kill me .”
Angulimal threw down his sword , fell into Buddha’s feet and he said , you have killed me before I can kill you.you are right – destruction can be done by anybody . But teach me how to be creative . ‘’
It has always been a great question mark in Buddhist scriptures how such a murderous man was so easily transformed by Buddha .And it has happened , many a times that great scholars came , argued with him and were not convinced , and left unconvinced . Great kings came to him just to pay respect and hoping that his blessing would be enough , but not ready to meditate or to become sanyasins or to renounce.—just to receive blessing . and businessmen came to him and they did much as far as money was concerned,but they remain uninvolved. They donated those big lands and gardens to Buddha and for his monstaries , but they remain uninvolved . those big lands were nothing for them , but they never gave an inch of their consciousness to him .
Being connected and involved with the master/Guru through his work is more important than the kings who donated to him.